when i say stay away i really mean come closer
when i say dont touch me i really mean hold me tighter
when i say i dont need you i really mean i cant live without
when i say i dont want you i really mean i need you but im to scared to show it
when i say i wish i never meet you i really mean im happy that i found you
and when i say i hate you i really mean i LOVE you
when i say stay away i really mean come closer
AUNT MOE & KIRA
Ok well let me go head and get my 3rd confession out
this confession is to my aunt moe but mainly to my cousin kira for the simple fact that she’s the one who got in trouble for it.
well it had to be about 5 or 6 years ago,i dont quit remember,
it was my aunt moe bachelorette party
and for some reason all the kids had to stay at her house where the party was being held.
we were locked up in the room while the adults had their fun.
i was bored out of my mind,
so i decided to play house
i played as the mother
and threw on some of my aunt hills
which just so happen to be her favorite pair of shoes.
as i was playing in them
one of the hills broke
i was so scared i couldn’t think straight so i threw the shoe under the bed.
a few days later she found the shoe
hidden under the bed
and she was ferrous
when she asked who did it
i just sat on the couch with a stupid look on my face
i didnt know what to do
so i shouted out”kira did it!”
she tried to plead her case
but it was defenseless against my great acting skills
of course my aunt believed me because i was older
and my cousin kira got a whooping that would last her in-till her own wedding day.
that’s the end of my 3rd confession
so now all that’s left to say is
im sorry aunt moe for messing up your favorite pair of shoes
im also sorry to my cousin kira for throwing her under the bus and letting her receive a butt whooping that belonged to me
Ok so where do i begin ,
how about we take it slow
step by step..
one day,i was in the house alone,
grandma was gone at work
and made it clear to me that i was not to touch the new stove
or eat the food that was in the microwave because it was your lunch
after an our of fighting with my stomach
i decided to do the unthinkable
and granddaddy i ate your food
it didnt really fall out the microwave,
i ate half of it and then threw the rest away
so that my story would be believable
if it would make you feel better
the chicken was kind of dry
and the fries was a little to greasy
i dont think your a bad boyfriend
your actually the best iv ever had
its just that
i expect more from you,from us
we both have our s**t that definitely needs some refreshing
its just that
it seem like your not trying to makeup for your mistakes and fix your flaws
its like when i tell you something it goes in one ear and out the other
which makes me feel like
your not qualified for this job ..
Am i wrong about you
which is why im still waiting for you to show me other wise
let me see what i know you can be..
and maybe we can give this another shot
and begin to rebuild our empire.
so we are at it again
with the same old drama,the same old tears and the same old pain
uggh,i hate it when we fight.
i cant stand the lack of happiness,peace and love
not to mention the lonely nights
when your missing from my other line
so im left asking god if this is my sign
to just let it all go
and get out while i still can
but no matter how hard
i try to read between the lines
i can never make it off of this page
when will this chapter be over.
i manage to find your application
reopen your file
and read over your resume.
how did i manage to miss all of this
your background check didn’t look to good.
and neither did mine
i wasn’t expecting that one
That’s when our anger takes over and the disrespect comes out,
we say the most hurtful things
then we just walk away.
Why must we hurt each other like this?
i dont think this is how a relationship is suppose to be,
i want to give up and leave but something has a hold on me and wont let go
and i think its love
It kills me when i turn on the television
expecting to see something good
like the latest music video
or one of my favorite t.v shows
and all i get is the
latest news story
about how another young life has been taken.
Don’t get me wrong its sad when anyone dies
but to me its sadder when the young die
for the simple fact that they have not gotten the chance to live life to it’s fullest potential
its not fair how their life has been cut short
after only 14,15,or 16 years of living
they still had so much to learn, experience
and achieve in this world.
Lately it seems like everyone around me is dying
rather i know them or not
and they are getting younger by the minute
so i wanted to take the time to say a prayer for them
and every other young child who is no longer with us
To You, O Lord, we humbly entrust this child,so precious in Your sight. Take him/her into Your arms and welcome him/her into paradise, where there will be no sorrow, no weeping nor pain, but the fullness of peace and joy with Your Son and the Holy Spirit forever and ever. Amen.
HOW DO YOU STAY ON THE RIGHT PATH WHEN THE WRONG PATH IS WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
AS A TEEN THERE ARE LOTS OF THING THAT I ENJOY DOING.I’M STILL KIND OF FIGURING OUT THE WORLD AND THE WAY IT WORKS.BUT ONE THING I HAVE FULLY FIGURED OUT IS THAT AS MY BODY GETS OLDER MY MIND HAS TO ALSO.SO NOW I’M TRYING TO CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER SO I CAN FINALLY BECOME A WOMAN. NOT A WOMAN PHYSICALLY BUT MENTALLY.ALONG MY JOURNEY I’M RUNNING INTO A LOT OF OBSTACLES AND IT’S GETTING HARDER AND HARDER FOR ME TO STAY ON THE RIGHT PATH BECAUSE WHAT PEOPLE FEEL IS THE RIGHT THING ISN’T TO ME,SO THEREFORE I’M UNHAPPY.KNOWING THE WRONG PATH WILL SATISFY ME IN MANY WAYS.
EXAMPLE1:I MUST NOW VENTURE INTO THE WORLD AND GET A JOB TO SUPPORT MYSELF.
BUT I LOVED IT WHEN I WAS ABLE TO GET EVERYTHING I WANTED FOR FREE,
I SAY FREE FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT THE MONEY NEVER CAME FROM MY OWN POCKETS.
I ENJOYED HAVING FUN AND HANGING OUT WITH MY GIRLS,NOT HAVING TO WORK A 9:00 A.M TO 5:OO P.M
NOT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT HOW I’M GOING TO DO THIS THAT AND THE THIRD.I KNOW THAT IS VERY SELFISH FOR ME TO SAY BUT IN MY DEFENSE THAT’S WHAT I’M USED TO THAT WAS MY COMFORT ZONE.
EXAMPLE2:BECAUSE OF REASONS I SHALL NOT SAY OVER THE INTERNET,I DIDN’T GET THE CHANCE TO FINISH MY LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL.NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.BUT AFTER A WHOLE YEAR OUT OF SCHOOL I HAVE GOTTEN USE TO BEING HOME CHILLING,NOT ANSWERING TO TEACHERS NOT DOING HOMEWORK AND HAVING TO ANSWER TO ANYONE.I KNOW GOING BACK TO SCHOOL WILL BETTER ME IN SO MANY WAYS BUT ON THE OTHER HAND NOT BEING IN SCHOOL IS MY COMFORT ZONE AND MY COMFORT ZONE IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
EXAMPLE3:NOW THAT I’M 18 I HAVE TO MAKE BETTER DECISIONS AND LEARN HOW TO GET MYSELF OUT OF A BAD SITUATION FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT I’M A WOMAN NOW SO THEREFORE MY PARENTS ARE NO LONGER LIABLE FOR MY STUPID DECISIONS AND BAD ACTIONS.HERE IS A GOOD EXAMPLE OF THAT,MY BOYFRIEND HAS A LITTLE SISTER SHE IS 16 GOING ON 60.SHE IS THE DEFINITION OF A B***H.I HATE HER WITH EVERYTHING IN MY BODY..AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS SHE LIKES TO MESS WITH ME.AND I REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY THAT IS,I’VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO MAKE HER NOT LIKE ME.SO FOR VARIOUS REASONS I WANT TO WHIP HER A** AND TEACH HER NOT TO MESS WITH ME.I KNOW THAT IF I FIGHT HER I WILL GO TO JAIL BECAUSE SHE IS 16 AND I’M 18,BUT HONESTLY I DON’T CARE.HIS MOTHER AND FATHER DON’T SEEM TO THINK THAT SHE’S DOING ANYTHING WRONG,WHICH MAKES ME EVEN MADDER AND I REALLY WANT TO TELL BOTH OF THEM OFF,BUT EVERYONE KEEP TELLING ME NOT TO BECAUSE I’M A “WOMAN” NOW AND I HAVE TO ACT LIKE ONE.BUT THAT’S JUST ME AND MY COMFORT ZONE.
SO NOW I ASK AGAIN
HOW DO YOU STAY ON THE RIGHT PATH WHEN THE WRONG PATH IS WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY???